Lunches..

After moving to my new office location and in the process, missing out my dear friends’ company at every other occasion across the time of my office hours, I have gotten into a habit of doing things alone…like having lunch alone, having tea breaks alone or altogether skipping it, even going to the wash room alone..;)

This whole process has given me a lot of time alone, with self, for contemplation. Contemplation on anything and everything happening around me, in front of me, in other cities, in my dear ones’ lives, in my own life…I happen to have an opinion on everything happening around me..just that I never put it forth…

I am just back from one such “in company of self” lunches. ..a perfect time to listen to the world around you…all the other “IT employed, day in and day out running around office” souls..And it just so happens that all I get to hear around me is Cricket…Now Cricket, like all the other subjects in India, has every one making and sharing their own opinions. Ranging from avid fans to disinterested souls like me, we all have an opinion on the right shot, the perfect player or the game and the way it was played.

I happen to sit at a crowded table (full of gals, as per my choice) and get to hear these “fans” discuss, of all things, why Sehwag was not playing and why he should be playing the next game. Every gal at that table had an opinion. I almost thought it would be my turn soon and was furiously thinking of a seemingly sensible statement to make. The men behind my table were almost as excited about the upcoming game as women are when they shop at a sale. Some mixed crowd were having discussions on “Doosra” while some flirting couples were flirting on their choice of best cricketers (of all topics !!)…

In all these talks, I guess I was having the best of times taking snippets from here and there and store them away for repackaging and showing off in front of my friends on right occasions…

Well, this got me thinking… aren’t we all doing the same thing…Some genuine conversationalists take pains to gather knowledge from books, internet, mentors, News channels etc to make up their own opinion while others like me, just conveniently pick stuff from them and place them in front of others in a designer wear. And this cycle just goes on...Well, as long as I get my snippets, I m a happy person…

Writing qualms..!!

Writing ones thoughts down according to me is one of the toughest jobs. There are multiple reasons..

1. Writing needs one’s thoughts to be very structured.

2. Writing makes one commit to one’s thoughts without the comfort of changing minds.

3. Writings makes one stand up and acknowledge one’s thought as their own rather than passing it off as someone else’s brain wave in case things go wrong.

Now that I have jotted down atleast three points as to why writing is difficult, it also gives me a new perspective of my own self. Have I been shying away from writing because of these above points. Was it because of an internal need to have the acknowledgement of the world in general to my writing sense? Well, most probably, the answer is yes, cos I have always been a person trying to fit myself in line with the world in general. Though at one end, I have also been proud of being a rebel with my loved ones.

But shouldn’t this equation be the other way round? Rebel to the world and a saint with loved ones..? Surely, that’s exactly what the world wants now, aint it? All rebels grow, get what they want in life and move ahead while saints stay back where they started...But why am I not able to do so, I wonder…Again, that certainly has a lot to do with one’s comfort zone and I, for one, never like moving out of my comfort zone.

Well, right here, I seem to have convinced myself after a lot of deliberation and a call from the inside to not waste away all my time in dreams that I have taken my first baby step towards moving out of my comfort zone. I have decided to write more often with no qualms what so ever about the world and their skewed opinions…

After all, m also a part of the same world with my own set of skewness , right!! ;)...well, God bless and keep my new found interest rolling..;)